For a moment I’m going to invite you to consider what I call The Crazy.
It’s also been called the rollercoaster, our upside-down world, and the cosmic $#*%storm. But maybe it’s just ordinary reality.
The crazy can bump up against all of us. For some of us it gets so nasty, we could charge it with assault.
Lately I’ve heard stories of intense family trauma, financial stress, legal battles coming out of nowhere, health issues, betrayals, friendships ending, marriages and careers going to pieces—and yet none of this is new. The dance of chaos goes on full force around us all.
When the crazy hits, I go looking for perspective—but not where you’d think.
As a shamanic practitioner, I turn to the great fierce mother herself, Kali Ma. While I was not born Hindu, I honour Kali deeply. She has shaped and sheltered me in my life journey. She is the archetype of the Universal Mother that I often turn to for support.
Kali represents the forces of change and transformation—she knows chaos. Kali stands on the back of chaos, laughing. She’s a fearless warrior—swift, messy, and rarely gentle. Her wisdom cuts like a knife. Her love is not squishy or soft—it’s straight-up, unwavering compassion. She’s that super-tough, street-savvy Mama who is ever ready to kick ass.
Accessing Kali’s kick-ass wisdom requires a little step away from the crazy.
To call on her wisdom, we enter what shamanic practitioners call Non-Ordinary Reality.
I close my eyes and start with my imagination and the monotonous rhythm of a drum. The drumbeat allows me to enter a relaxed state, something like meditation, but with a very active goal in mind.
I go on a journey to meet Kali Ma and ask for some insight about how to live in this upside-down world.
When I arrive in non-ordinary reality, I find Kali deep in a cave, brooding over a burning fire.
Me: I am yours, Mother.
Kali: Are you truly mine?
Me: Yes, Mother.
Kali: If you are truly mine, you must know that Love that does not begin with you. It neither begins nor ends with you. This is the way of the Love that runs through all things, without beginning and without end.
Only this Love can affect the outcome.
Stay with this Love and do not become attached to things which are not yours.
Make not actions that entangle you with this or that event.
Some things are not for you, and the karma must be worked out. If not now, at some point.
Know only this Love.
It is I who have always nurtured you, even if at times I have not seemed nurturing.
Know this Love. Hold it in your spine, as a channel holds a river. And know this Love is not limited to you—its power is that it encompasses all things.
Hold this Love, as a channel.
And so she is done speaking.
I travel back to ordinary reality in my mind, following the heartbeat of the drum I’m playing.
In shamanic journeywork, messages can be veiled in metaphor. With time and practice we achieve greater clarity. In this case, however, I don’t think Mama could have been more explicit.
We must hold space for Love—Love as the essential vibration, Love as primordial creative energy, Love as the ultimate power.
Not always easy. There’s no quick fix. Sometimes it doesn’t seem light and love are prevailing, or even holding their own against darkness.
But where terrible trauma and drama are dancing, Kali prods us to remember we are one with the flow of all things. She reminds us to practice this daily, so that we can continue to remember.
We are made of Love, and we bear witness to Love’s manifestations. We do not control outcomes, but in making ourselves channels for Love’s primordial energy, we discover we are never truly alone. We have access to untold power.
That power stands on the back of chaos, laughing.
Are you experiencing trauma or drama in your life right now? If so, you are not alone! In the comments below, I’d love to hear how you’re bringing Love into the darkness.
Wishing you a joyous dance on this Earth,
K-Bhava, Kristi Corlett
K-Bhava directs DevaTree’s 100-hr Yoga & Shamanism Certificate course in London, Ontario.